Why am I different to you

I think I know why I am treated differently.....u bkame your self for what I have become, a user. You blam yourself cause u started with you. I am different cause u feel responsible for what I have become. Guilty so when the others are here and u get mad at me cause you started me not them.

Wolf the immortal

You are immortal I hope you know this Master. I sit next to you writting this realizing it myself for the first time. You can never die for wevthe mortal wont let you. You will live with in us long after your body has passed.

Gone

I know when your gone your gonna take a huge chunk od ne with you. I loved youbas best youvl would allow me which wasnt much, ya know. I know I know it was for my own good,  so you said. It didnt make it any easier. You have taught me alot I wont forget I swear it. Never a day will go by that you wont be in my thoughts and prayers mt Master for ever. 

Master Wolf

As I sit here watching you  sleep...making sure you are still breathing that is. I see the age of your soul catching up to your current body. I see the hour glass almost empty on this your 13th life. I hope the last few years/months/days/hours/minutes you have left on this earth are filled with the peace and joy and happiness you have earned. For when your time comes and you go home with the fallen ones before you, your leaving this Earth this time will leave a big whole in a lot a hearts and minds. Peace to you my Master Wolf and sleep well, for I will see you on the other side.

Left out.......it sucks and it hurts

I fell in love with him, he fell in love with her and she always loved her wife. Confused join the club and I'm living it. Now I have been dropped out in the cold and left behind forgotten. I hope they read this someday.....till then Peace

Dead

I have reached the breaking point where I cant do this shit anymore. I am tired of the pain I feel everyday both mental and physical. I dont want anymore I dont need it anymore. My time is over I am ready for the my next life if allowed to live it. I have tried so many times to finish this hell I even tried to push my dearest friend into killing me, damn Deggar was smart enough to not do it. Well that aint gonna stop this pit bull. There are options here tons so peace to all.............-LP-

The Chosen written with help by Master Wolf

   

      As the ghosts march by, soldiers going to war, row by row, man by man.  The Elder Alpha Silver Wolf, silver-grey in color, runs along side and through the rows of men, watching their steps, looking into each man's eyes and dispatching those with weakness and those with evil in their souls. While the crows and ravens fly overhead and into the future from the past with messages of lore and triumph. I can hear their footsteps in the grass as they marched by yet I can not seem them, even though there are but only two inches in front of me.  I see their words as if in speech bubbles, as if I'm reading a cartoon, above each man. Each man marches tall and proud it seems like they can not feel the gentle breeze. Is it going right through them? The grass moves not as they step upon it and march through as if they aren't even there. But, only I see and hear them. Why have I been chosen?  I can feel the rhythm of their footsteps upon the ground as if an earthquake was making the hills roll like thunder. Row by row, man by man. There are stars alined over each man's head as if a star had been chosen only for him. There is no heat nor is there cold. Absense of heat, here they do not sweat. Absense of cold, nay they shiver not. The Elder Alpha Silver Wolf leaves no tracks of his strides as he runs thru the men doing the job The Grand Fathers have chosen him for. Yet the soldiers footprints do not appear as such. For they are the "The Chosen Ones" of The Elder Alpha Silver Wolf. Their steps are as if "The Many are One." And when the whiteman looks upon "The Trail of Tears" they see one set of prints but not foot prints. One set of prints can be seen, that of "The Wolf..."  A-HO!

time grows short

Sitting here just talking the normal bullshit with you I hear in your voice the longing for home.  Have you been there before or not I am unsure but I hear your wanting to leave these states and go. Go to your one true love and life.  Wanting to leave everyone and everything behind (once all is taken care of) and live this your 13th and last life in peace in your home.  Wanting to find happyness and at long last being able to rest.  To find peace in a world of chaos is the ultimate goal for you and yours. Hopeing and praying you find what you are looking for......a place for you and your old soul to finaly rest in peace and happyness.  I hope you read this with a smile on your face and write to tell me so, cause I will not be able to see for myself, for I will be here in the states. Dont forget us here Master the few friends you have here.

Wolf's home

Sitting here just talking the normal bullshit with you I hear in your voice the longing for home.  Have you been there before or not I am unsure but I hear your wanting to leave these states and go. Go to your one true love and life.  Wanting to leave everyone and everything behind (once all is taken care of) and live this your 13th and last life in peace in your home.  Wanting to find happyness and at long last being able to rest.  To find peace in a world of chaos is the ultimate goal for you and yours. Hopeing and praying you find what you are looking for......a place for you and your old soul to finaly rest in peace and happyness.  I hope you read this with a smile on your face and write to tell me so, cause I will not be able to see for myself, for I will be here in the states. Dont forget us here Master the few friends you have here.

To Wolf my friend

You say my talking about death hurts you....and yet I hear you all the time talking  wishing how you could die. If/when you die for the last time you life will have touched on so many lives you will never ever know the effect of your to be passing. I hope when you go you go in peace and yes the world will raise a glass (diet bud) to you in toast. 

U

Sitting watching u talk to her I can see how much in love u r, I pray she sees it too.

I am

I am the one

I am the one you are looking for.....
I am the one you should fear....
I am the one you should trust with your life and you death.....
I am the one you cant find....
I am the one who haunts your very soul....
I am the one you need to hear and listen to......
I am the one who very well may save your life.....
I am the one who you seek......
I am the one

two faces

I can see the two faces of the Master hiding within the body of the Wolf. One's fangs dripping with the blood of a fresh kill while the others eyes plead for the mercy of man and man kind. Death will be a welcome to all who cross this being. If you cross him you will pay with your soul and life but not in that order. When the full moon rises again the two beings will become as one and rule the under world. 

In my heart

I have a fear in my heart
Its very strong and powerful
Its trying to push me into a choice
A choice I don't know if I can make
If  I am ready to make
If I want to make.
This fear is a fear for my life and my children s lives.

Rock and a hard place

I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Im tired of being hurt and hurting within myself. I have a few routes I can take but all of them lead to someone else getting hurt and I just cant do that either. No matter how much I hate someone I can do something that I know will hurt them. Grrrr

Wanting

Wanting the freedom I have earned
Wanting the safety I was promised so long ago
Wanting for you to understand
Wanting to try again but fearing that you have pushed me to far away
Wanting to come home but still am afraid of what may happen
Wanting you to understand what you have done to me
Wanting you to understand what you have made me do.

Hells fire

As I sit here I can see the fire in your eyes. Hell fire....hotter than what you walked thru. Hell fire what you went thru as a boy in this life time and I am sure other life's as well. It burns bright as the night stars....You are looking for someone, not however your long lost love but someone more to you deeper the connection.  I sit here watching you feeling your hunger almost to find this soul....

Cry

Tired of my kids being in pain cause of there father. Hating that I have to have him drag them away crying because I cant go with them. Yet when I am there its like they hate me. So tired of feeling alone in this world even though I know I am not. Not sure what I am supoosed to do anymore and hating every minute of it. Wanting so much to change mine and my kids life but have no clue how. Yes getting rid of him would be a great first step but....they love him to death. No matter what he does/says to them they dont want him to leave them. So I am stuck I dont want to be with him anymore and cant take them away from him. Plus I want to be with them kids I do love them.....Hating this place I have firmly rooted myself into. Someone please help me I am tired of hurting. TIred of being the only one in my family trying to save my family. I have outside help but HE dont wanna hear anything anyone else has to say.

Am what I am

I am what I am... this may bring you pain and hurt I am truly sorry. We knew this would end this way.  I give you  me soul and me life in a heartbeat, but it comes down to this last battle between us. When you come back to the states it will be the last time we meet, wont it? Till then I will kill for you, lie and steal like I have been, untill then my mouth will shut. But when you return shit will change.  For then D and I will have our final battle and like I said it will be epic.  Who will win I can not say for sure, but I think it will be you. And all I ask is this.... D use your hands not a blade or bullets. Thank you and peace.

River

Watching the river of red flow from my wounds, wishing you could see the pain you have caused me. Over and over again you stab me deeper and deeper each time till you hit my soul. Feeling the pain you cause me every time like its the first time. No wonder I wanted to die and you along with me. No wonder I feel like this day in and day out. But into my life has come a "teacher" teaching me how to deal, let it go if you will. IF not by example alone by watching him being used and abused everyday and when asked if he is ok "I have to be" is his answer. If only I could be that strong, I wouldn't die today and every other day. I could life my head in pride and feel the peace I so desire and long for. I am becoming stronger everyday and it scares you. I am finding my voice and you hate it. I am learning I am "little one" for I have yet so so much to learn.

Once again

Once again I find my self struggling to prove me worth to a thousand different people.
Once again I can't seem to find peace.
Once again I miss the things I left behind for me family.
Once again  I have to be told it is for the best, even though I disagree.
Once again I find myself falling into old and deadly habits.
Once again I find that I don't want to be where I am.
Once again I find myself wishing I could turn back time.
Once again I find myself with "sticky fingers".
Once again I find myself wanting what I can not have.
Once again I find a hunger in me to change what can not be changed.
Once again I find myself unhappy.
Once again I find in pain.
Once again I find hurting.

Left behind

Why am I being left being left behind once again?
All me life this and past I have been left behind.
SO tired of everyone leaving me here to rot
Wishing I could be with me family for once in life time.
Wishing I knew me place in this world and what I am to amount too.
Hating what I see everywhere I look
At you and even in the the mirror I hate what I see
What I have become and what I have been.
Not wanting to be left behind once again for I fear death is coming for me soon.
I want to be with me family to know where I belong
But I don't see that happening any time soon.
Wishing and praying for something to change within me heart
No more being left behind says I
No more being a victim no more hating what I see everyday of my life
Gonna change history by changing the present I hope and pray this works.
I know you say I need to stay but I feel I can not stay where I am not wanted.
I know you say it is my duty but again with everyone not wanting me there how can I possibly do what you ask of me?
I fear for me family and me life, by leaving I may of made things way worse.
I don't think I made it any better but I did learn some things from my time with you.
So I thank you and I hope I will make you proud in my decisions.
For you are my Master and my dearest freind.
That is my I dont want to be left behind yet again by you or anyone else.
Me parents, me mates, me own kids have left me here to rot in this hell I am now living.

Master

On the wings of a dragon you will find a wolf. For he is flying finally home. Home to a new land where he has not been before (at least this life time),and yet he calls it his own.  As he fly he thinks about all that he left behind. Heartbreak, suffering and the pain which was caused by those closest to him.  All they never asked or needed he would give them at no regards to the cost to himself. If it meant he would go without he do it in a heartbeat. The shirt off his own back was up for grabs despite what it meant to him. Food ha he didn't need it if you did, yours. Not one person he thought was true to him....maybe. For the one he thinks was true will be put to the ultimate test and we shall see if  Raven is true or not.