Label::Chandler Reed

OK you are seeing allot of posts this the label Chandler Reed well these posts are more like messages I  cant say to his face.  I am a chickenshit sometimes.

I used to

I used to care what happened to you and I still do to a point. But there is no longer a crush involved. I hate to be this way but you are gonna get screwed if you don't watch out for you self. PLEASE go back to AL now while you still can

Confession and prediction

This is what WILL happen I hate to say this but it will.  {He comes to our door in tears.  “She took off with everything. I know she did not like you guys but I got over it. I am moving back home with my family.  My girls are gone her dad says he does not have a clue where she went, but I don’t buy it for a minute.  I just wanted to say sorry for all the shit she caused.”  “What do you mean she is gone with everything?” I ask him.  “She took everything outta the apartment, clothes, my dog tags, my navy ring everything.”  He replies.  “Hey um before you go dude, I need to say something, just don’t go have me thrown in jail for it alright?” I say. “No I wouldn't do that you guys didn't do that to me and I owe you for that one.” He says. “Well Amanda didn't take everything, ya know. I hate to say this but I had a feeling she was going to do this long time ago, so I may have taken I few things just in case I was right.” I reach into my pocket and give him his navy ring and one out of two of his dog tags.  “What, when, how?” he asks. “Hey you used to bitch about Ella and Ben never taking care of their stuff, and yet you don’t even realize your stuff was missing!? Ha.” }

forgiveness

I know we are supposed to forgive everyone for what wrong they do to us. But is there a line you dont cross? I know I need to and so does my other half to forgive someone but I know it wont happen. I wish I could make him forgive this person but I know it will not happen...my other half cant even forgive his family for crao that happend 15 yrs ago. I am doomed. I want him to forgive this person because I want them back as friends. Any suggestions?

Fears

Being in the line of work you are listening to what the people say must be hard. Who do you tell you secrets too? How do you deal with the darkness of their minds while you are trying to help them deal with it? Do you ever get scared? Do you ever think now why didn’t I think of that? I would be afraid of learning to much information on how to move towards the darkness we all have inside us.

Sleep

I don’t sleep anymore. No that’s not right I sleep by laying down and closing my eyes but I don’t feel like I slept the next morning. I dream mostly about you. I miss you as a friend. I wish things turned out differently. In the back of my mind I hear Scott yelling at me this is wrong not right. I need to stop all this wishing and just make things right. Or at least talk to you. “What are you afraid of? What’s the worst that could happen?” is what he is saying in my mind. Oh how I miss you two guys. Well I need to get over my fear and just talk to you.

Time to vent

I am so frusted in hearing all the rumors and bullshit flying around west park its not even funny!  I miss talking to you guys all the time. You told me we were cool even though I think you may have said the crap running around just to save face. But one rumor I know is true and you do need to kill it before you get in trouble and thats Kelly living with ya. If Lori or Pat hear about it you toast.  Be CAREFUL who knows your bussiness as you can tell its going around AMANDA!