inshallah

inshallah means God willing

Sara Porto

i am trying to raise the dead wanting so bad to go back in time and save a life of someone i will now never meet. Thinking if i had known u would u still have killed yourself???

     I feel the need to do something.... To pay homage for her. I feel she is trying to speak to me, her family but cant be heard or they r not listening.

RIP Sara

Two faces

The face i show is not my true face. Inside I am screaming in anger and crying in pain. I have two names.... Two thoughts in one body.

Congrats S+C

To Scott and Cheryl,
Can I say first off I always knew you two would end up even before Scott got his first divorice. I knew it...just they way you two were around each other. Congrats again you two. I miss talking with the two of you hope to some day see you guys again for now come by here if you wish  PS oh Scott I still listen to Tracks of My Tears every now and then, plus I still have mu RDH shirt do you?

Later,

You know who.

Searching

Looking for escape. Trying to find where I belong. Looking everywhere and finding no where.

Urges

Do you ever get the urge to do something you know is wrong?  Just do it once and maybe the urges will stop. But its so horid.... the pictures in your mind. The visions in my head are driving me to a point I dont want to go there. There is no voices just pictures and a lot of them. I must not see them. Oh Lord help me

Tuesday night

Tuesday night DG
This site is different than all the other sites for one reason. One night a month the Hindu's are the cooks. And every thing is five alarm and vegan. I can handle the vegan just not the five alarm. 

homeless our story

People have told me to write our story so here we go... PADS in DuPage County is a homless shelter that r located in different churchs basements. Line up at 630 not to be seen a minutd before hiding like a bunch of rats waiting to run into a line till 7pm where then we would b abld to c if there was a place for us there that night.

PADS

When I was younger I had this almost like fantisy of being on the streets. Now that I have actualy been there and done that I have come to realize how lucky I was. I feel now that these spoiled adults who think they have had it hard should try living where I was for two weeks. DuPage county P.A.D.S So this is my story.

Not sure how to best tell so I will go day by day.

guilt

I feel guilty right now because my heart is wanting what I know I cant have. He is taken and so am I. Sighs..had some cyber fun but its not enough, it makes me want more.

Missing

I am missing all my old friends today. I dont know why but I am longing for my past. Dave, Craig, John, Paul and Isaiah. Miss you all