I hate where my life is going. I want to so bad make changes but fear I cant. Not sure how to fix this either. My writtings and dreams keep getting darker and darker.
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Push
pushing pushing you
away pushing pushing you closer to me. Cant deside where I want you and I to
be. Lifte me up so I can find the answers. Gona go insane yes sir gonna go
insane even more. You could say I am at a crossroads in my life. I feel like
its time for me to go to war, for I was born for battle
Eyes final
eyes wide open to
what my heart is telling me. You and I where never ment to be. I am sorry to
say it this way I cant lie to you or
myself anymore. I must embrace the truth. You were my first and always will be
but its time I move on. Cant keep up this act anymore. Eyes wide open to the
truth, what I need is not what I want. I am no hero to these kids but I will
not give up on them either or there father. Eyes wide open to knowing this is
not what you want to hear. I will always love you my dear. Eyes wide opne to
the fact you wanna know why. I feel we have drifted apart once again. So tired
to trying to stay "afloat" to stay with you and him, I cant tell the
lies anymore that I have to, to keep him happy. Why must I lie because he hates
you so. For everything you did. Eyes wide open to the fact that even as I write
this line I wish I was with you. AAHHHH cant deal with this shit much more.
Eyes wide open to how I feel. I need someone to come save me, save me now. Save
me from myself once again. The end is HERE!
Change
I am who I want to be
as dark as I want to be. This will never change so stop trying to change who I
am. I love what I think and feel and write. I cant change just to blend in and
be normal. So tired of everyone wanting me NOT to be me but them. Sorry mates
but I will never change who I am. I am a thief and a liar this I do want to be different.
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