Happy new year....not

Had a crappy year in 2014 so of course 2015 is gonna be the same. Was disowned by my birth father when I was born and now by my adoptive father. All because I left a very bad situation to protect myself. Now I am hated by everyone in my family so I dont have one anymore. So fuck it I am outta here.

Moving

Been living with a dear friend last couple of months Wolf...now he is headed home and so am I. Back to hubby and kids and all the craziness in South Park. Gonna miss the Wolf for sure but am happy he finally gets to go home where he belongs.

Last breath

Hanging with my last breath. Waiting on Death's open arms to finally greet me at last into my restful slumber. Thinking I think of the ones I leave behind. My love and my family. I wish things could have worked about better for all that came into my life. Wishing on some things I could go back and re-do maybe tweek a few things I did or words I said. Maybe my next life I can be someone that matters to the world. Maybe I can see my true loved ones again in the next life, that is my wish. And if this is my last life I hope to be remembered for what I did and who I was. Peace to all. -LP-

Sickness with in

The Raven had been tasked with watching over the sick wolf. Yet the wolf stubborn in his ways refuses most help offered. So Raven must be her sneaky self help while he sleeps. Then she can sneak into his dreams and mind and help him heal. That is once she can convince the guard dragon who is more stubborn than the wolf. Shaking her head she goes to the dragon "I appeal to you on behalf of wolf...look into my heart and know I speak truth when I say I only want to help wolf heal. For you are the guardian of this ancient soul. Allow me to help him heal for he has helped me so much." Surprisingly the dragon stands aside this time and allows her inside the wolf's dreams and mind. Taking only her medicine bag she enters the unknown. Seeing the turmoil with in the wolf she gulps and gets to work. Slowly finding the bugs that need to be removed so Wolf can be master once again. Hunting them down one by one, like soldiers marching into war. For Raven and Wolf have fought many battles together many wars have they seen. Now that the last bug has been dealt with the wolf can rest in peace and wake feeling alive once again.

Stolen work but still had to post

die...

• by LiViNGMyTH, 2 minutes, 8s ago
• Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

If I were to die
Be it drowning
Murder
Or suicide
Will you mourn?
Will you cry?
How will you react?
When you hear the news of my death
Will you tell others?
Will you wish to hide?
Will you take your life?
Will you use the gun?
The blade of a knife?
How will you fall?
Will you go in the same manner as I?
Be it drowning
Murder
Or suicide?

Yellow eyes

Eyes wide open to all the pain I see.
Eyes wide open wondering how you can stand such pain and sorrow.
Each day brings more pain and more hurt. Wanting to know why you just don't go home and didnt so long ago. This is your time right here,right now. Eyes wide open so I can see into your soul, all I ever see when I look is your pain. Eyes wide open to you trying to end your pain one way or another. Wondering when you will hear her crys like I do begging you just to go home. Eyes wide open to the fact that your mission is not yet over, but soon it will be. Eyes wide open to the fact that when is all said and done you will finaly ba able to sleep like you need.

Wanting

Wanting the freedom I have earned
Wanting the safety I was promised so long ago
Wanting for you to understand
Wanting to try again but fearing that you have pushed me to far
     away
Wanting to come home but still am afraid of what may happen
Wanting you to understand what you have done to me
Wanting you to understand what you have made me do.

Needles

Someone asked me why I hate needles. I hate them for one simple reason, in my past life I was a POW and tortured for what I knew. Needles were a big part of it too, so I hate them and cringe when I see em being used

Valley

As I walk into the valley of Death I feel at home. In the total darkness I find peace and I almost feel calm. I feel at home here and to enter is easy its leaving that is hard. To leave you must part with something very dear to you. I left long ago and am now ready to return.

No one gets left behind

That is what they are told when they sign up to go to war. No one gets left behind. What a bunch of lies, right? There are to this day still soldiers listed as MIA from Vietnam.  Our country men put everything on the line for a lie. When they get caught they get disowned our government says we don't negotiate with terrorists. 

Time to hide once again

The walls are going back up again. No more pain, no more sorrow, no more fear, and no more TEARS! I am not going to "feel" anything for my feelings have yet again betrayed me. Tired of being hurt by everyone time to be stone faced again.

2 names one body

My mind has begun to tear in to two seprate people. Lori and Sue there paths are going further and further apart. Not sure whom will end up taking over totally and whom will disappear forever. I welcome who ever wins this battle with open arms because it will be the true me finally coming out. Hating to have to loose one part of me though yes I know both can be together but I dont want that. Ride or die its time to say goodbye.

Sight

I have been blinded for the longest time. My sight was taken away from me for my own protection of the torturer I went under lifetime ago. Now that block is gone and I remember everything. My sight though has come back but much stronger than it was before. I am seeing things I don't think I should see. Future to the past I see it all now, good or bad. I am ready for this I think I hope.

Raven and Wolf

For I am the raven always on guard when you can not be.

For it is my job to see you home safe even when I can be by your side. 

RIP Thunder Lord

Watching the Wolf howl over his pack. Forgetting all in mourning for the loss of a member of his pack. Wishing maybe he could have know him better. For the pain of loss is hard for anyone.....But taking faith in one day knowing he will see his friend again, it doesn't ease the pain but something does change.

"Each day is a gift and not a given right" Nickelback