BCD

I feel like I lost someone I never really had. And it scares me, that I would drop everything and run to you.  Even though you are not mine 100% and you don't know what you want. I made a promise to not be stupid and be your friend I and I will honor that promise. So I hope you will honor yours and when you do deiced let me know whom you choose. Cause its killing me right now and no matter what you deiced I am not going anywhere. Everything I have is on the balance I hope you know that. It also hurts me to leave everything hanging like it is so I really hope you can answer soon.