What you want

You want to kill him don’t you?

That’s why every time wither you are coming or going you look up towards me.

You are looking for an excuse to deal with him.

And you don’t even know half of what he has done.

I hate to say this but someday you will get your chance.

Watching me

I see you watching me from a far. Yet you do not know are.

Demons

All of my past demons have come back to haunt me... I was joking to a friend of mine mostly because I think she thinks I am a goodie goodie two shoes. HA! If you knew half of what I have done / want to do you would freak.  The sh**t I have done and caused to happen. I keep asking for forgiveness and yet turn right around and do it again. I had beaten them for awhile and now they are back with vengeance.

Pfft

Sitting here wondering what if? What if... I never got married
What if... I never left home

Lately

I have been in a fog as of late..cant figure out the date even. Tired and wired at at the same time. Frustrated of the life I am living wanting a new way out. Wishing I had never done some of the things I have done, and wanting to do stuff I never did. I should of called this post regret.

Awsome

Wish

Wishing you where here and not just in my dreams. How I miss you my friend and your advice is the best still. No matter how far away you go you will be forever with me.