two faces

I can see the two faces of the Master hiding within the body of the Wolf. One's fangs dripping with the blood of a fresh kill while the others eyes plead for the mercy of man and man kind. Death will be a welcome to all who cross this being. If you cross him you will pay with your soul and life but not in that order. When the full moon rises again the two beings will become as one and rule the under world. 

In my heart

I have a fear in my heart
Its very strong and powerful
Its trying to push me into a choice
A choice I don't know if I can make
If  I am ready to make
If I want to make.
This fear is a fear for my life and my children s lives.

Rock and a hard place

I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Im tired of being hurt and hurting within myself. I have a few routes I can take but all of them lead to someone else getting hurt and I just cant do that either. No matter how much I hate someone I can do something that I know will hurt them. Grrrr

Wanting

Wanting the freedom I have earned
Wanting the safety I was promised so long ago
Wanting for you to understand
Wanting to try again but fearing that you have pushed me to far away
Wanting to come home but still am afraid of what may happen
Wanting you to understand what you have done to me
Wanting you to understand what you have made me do.

Hells fire

As I sit here I can see the fire in your eyes. Hell fire....hotter than what you walked thru. Hell fire what you went thru as a boy in this life time and I am sure other life's as well. It burns bright as the night stars....You are looking for someone, not however your long lost love but someone more to you deeper the connection.  I sit here watching you feeling your hunger almost to find this soul....

Cry

Tired of my kids being in pain cause of there father. Hating that I have to have him drag them away crying because I cant go with them. Yet when I am there its like they hate me. So tired of feeling alone in this world even though I know I am not. Not sure what I am supoosed to do anymore and hating every minute of it. Wanting so much to change mine and my kids life but have no clue how. Yes getting rid of him would be a great first step but....they love him to death. No matter what he does/says to them they dont want him to leave them. So I am stuck I dont want to be with him anymore and cant take them away from him. Plus I want to be with them kids I do love them.....Hating this place I have firmly rooted myself into. Someone please help me I am tired of hurting. TIred of being the only one in my family trying to save my family. I have outside help but HE dont wanna hear anything anyone else has to say.

Am what I am

I am what I am... this may bring you pain and hurt I am truly sorry. We knew this would end this way.  I give you  me soul and me life in a heartbeat, but it comes down to this last battle between us. When you come back to the states it will be the last time we meet, wont it? Till then I will kill for you, lie and steal like I have been, untill then my mouth will shut. But when you return shit will change.  For then D and I will have our final battle and like I said it will be epic.  Who will win I can not say for sure, but I think it will be you. And all I ask is this.... D use your hands not a blade or bullets. Thank you and peace.